Money to burn

 If I had a penny every time you let me down,

I'd be rich as a King in a crown,

I'd be rolling around in diamonds and pearls, I know

If I had a penny every time you cared,

I'd be poor as a poet in a broken bed,

Cause I've waited too long on your promises, I know,

Ooh I know,

Oh my love,

How long have you banked on me,

You say you're lost,

Story's getting old,

If your lies were money,

I'd still have money to burn,

But I believe,

You owe your love it all belongs to me,

If I could cash all the hurt,

I'd still have money to burn,

But I won't leave,

You owe your love it all belongs to me,

If I had a penny every time I caught you out,

I'd be drinking 'til the sun and the stars came down,

Bet you thought,

I didn't know about her,

Ooh, I know

Oh my love,

How long have you banked on me,

You say you're lost,

Story's getting old,

If your lies were money,

I'd still have money to burn,

But I believe,

You owe your love it all belongs to me,

If I could cash all the hurt,

I'd still have money to burn,

But I won't leave,

You owe your love it all belongs to me,

life 

treat me 

kindly

is 

all I 

ask 

now

Could it be I missed the question

I didn't hear you say a word

Or could it be I'm not the answer

Or your girl

I've been running round

Looking for reasons

It's funny, it still don't make sense

What is it that keeps you from thinking,

We're just friends?

I don't think we'd last forever

I'd always be waiting for more

And maybe if I weren't in love

It'd be easier

To play along

You say have I ever been

Have I ever been

Have I ever been someone to you

Mirror on the wall, here we are again Through my rise and fall

Mirror on the wall, here we are again
Through my rise and fall
You've been my only friend 
You told me that they can understand the man I am
So why are we here talkin' to each other again?

Funny enough life like to challenge

But here I am ready

It only shows who are the people who will stand by you no matter what

and it only shows the beauty of life

I should give here a few big shout outs to you 4 who just was as amazing as you possibly could to me. I always had fucking luck to meeting right people in the right moments. It never let me down. Thank you for being so blessed! 

Like sometimes taking unexpected turns

What what it teaches you that no matter what it can be turned in the best possible outcome

I'm not saying without struggle

But with the head rised up you can go forward

Maybe the good things are just around the corner?

All what has happened in life to me at the ends it always worked in my favours, even I could not see it at the start, but If you zoom out the time I could clearly see it

The life I picture myself is exciting, beautiful and full of love

as it's been for most, sometimes I'm getting lost but then I remember who I truly am.   

love

I wanna be surrounded by endless love.

I challenge myself to not stay in any version of that reality that does not fulfil that condition.

I choose love.

So love can choose me.

It might sound like I'm turning mad, but I'm not.

I stayed surrounded and caught up in so much bullshit that I am done with it.

One thing everyone is gifted with (most of us) is freedom of choice and I challenge myself to chose love.

first of all kinds of love goes love to yourself, once you posses it/become it then you are the part of the endless love network of our creation, and you can give it and receive it freely.

The scariest thing to do i distance yourself from things that blocking it, even it seems counterproductive.

on the other side is peace.

endless peace of mind, which can wipe out any worry 

and make you wanna live

today is the first day of my life when I can truly feel it and I hope it lasts.

I feel so calm I don't want it ever to end

and I love you

I know when it started but I don't know when it ends

I cannot keep writing as it will be constant long went
I promised to not went and to be positive as fuck
but I do feel lonely like never before 

I know my faults in it 

It feels like it will never end even my hopes are high 

I cannot find pleasure in anything and don't mistake with depression 

OMG!

 the freaking randomness and intensity thing are happening sometimes in my life is just insane

am I magnet to all freaking wired situation?

 I cannot went here for some reason but If I would just tell the stories you would be surprised yourself

I thought I might have to start writing a book as a story of my life bc it could sell well

L**** is as mad city, the amount of stuff happening here overcomes your imagination if you live anywhere else

I do

 enjoy every little moment given

so grateful I do have it

Its so lucky 

that I've got what I've got

:)

 

The only time I feel I might get better

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 Raise the glass for new to come!

It was quite a year. 

Everyone who knows would agree.

One more to go.