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I just realised, trying to do my half-year resume reel, that I barely left home this half-year,

and if I am being honest, I haven't been calmer and happier in a while

I've been working from home and think that it has benefited me
I never spent so much time on my own at home, and it gave me so much peace of mind

even though I was changing jobs a bit or staying a while with no job, it just gave me a new perspective on life, or rather, it reminded me how I used to see life

that happiness, openness and excitement for what it's gonna bring came back to me
I finally feel like good things are to come, and I feel like I don't ever want a corporate job

(might change mind later but for now...)
It was nice for a while, I loved my company, but that kind of job is so limiting, so inflexible, jarring and imprisoning, killing your brain and creativity

You become just a cog in the machine, and you are surrounded by other frustrated people whose whole life is pretty much work

I met different kinds of approaches recently, and I wanna stay in that domain

I don't wanna stress about Netflix deliveries to the level that I cannot sleep, even though sometimes it doesn't even depend on me

I wanna get up from the bed excited, hugged by life and happy to see what the day will bring 

I wanna do creative stuff, travel, have time and energy for friends

I wanna be planning my next trip and writing my next song 

and when finishing my job tasks, the moment I finish, not for a minute thinking about it, instead living the moment without overthinking 

The luxury of not using public transport, instead going for a daily walk to the park, naturally getting up at 6 or 5:30 AM as I allow my body to decide when I wanna wake up, and for some reason it selects the sunrise time

Taking a nap when I want and cooking my own food while WFH

Then, a few days, the days I select working with people for the joy of companionship, doing creative things and meeting people who live their lives instead of surviving, who are excited to achieve more, happy, funny and kind, not selectively kind, just kind by nature without fake smiles to climb the ladder of a large company

Somehow, if there is no ladder, or the only ladder you climb is your own horizon, you tend to be happier without forever chasing, you don't have to pretend, everyone is just themselves, and it benefits everyone

the idea of building a career is just for you to chase forever until you die

what if everyone focused instead, on becoming insanely good at something, something that they like, because they want it, 

wouldn't humanity benefit if doctors became doctors because they wanna heal, not because it's better paid?

If gardening or building weren't considered bad jobs, then the builders could go to work proud?

why does only a white-shirt job pay "well enough" and is "prestigious enough"

who decided that and when

I am at the point in life where I could not care less about other people, the more I focus on my own stuff, the happier I become

I also decided to stay in touch only with people who are kind, empathetic, joyful, and supportive. I am like that myself, and I don't know why I allowed other energy into my life for so long. 

Bitter, jealous, envious, judgmental, gossipy, and criticising are not values I want in my life, so why would I allow even partially this to be present in my life? I want good energy to flow around me, so I just stepped back with no regrets from anything like that, and it feels so refreshing

I wanna cultivate like a garden around me seeds of kindness, joy, compassion, supportiveness, encouragement, appreciation, and enthusiasm with no bad weeds damaging and destroying the peace of my garden.

I only realise now I can with no emotion, just simply block that sort of people and energies, be selective

let them be far away without interaction or negative emotions, just simply turning my head another way to things that supports me 

I always felt like I needed to explain, be understood, but maybe it's just a waste of energy

I am so grateful to be where I am. I had so much luck and support to be in that moment

Thank you!

dear unwritten future

 Dear future!

I know you're gonna be great, but could you be even greater? I lost my patience, all I want is now

So could we agree that you are now exactly as I always wanted?

I think it's fair play, I promise to make the best of it so it's win-win, you give me opportunities and chances, and I'm gonna smash them

Imagine all those sick things we can do together with a bit of luck!

Let's make an as unrealistic as possible list of things that could happen, and see how you can help:

But first things first,

Let's do it in white

1. My family is mentally, physically, and spiritually in good health, has peace of mind, and happiness, 

as we have that out of the way 

2. I am a great guitarist, composing comes so naturally and easily to me that even I am shocked when that happens

3. Somehow, my singing got better; it sounds so good!

4. I finished BIMM in music production and songwriting. I had so much fun there and learned a lot 

5. I am writing great songs, lifting people's moods and making them feel understood

6. I've seen Mexico, Brazil, French Polynesia, and Malaysia with those tiny islands, Japan, Shanghai, and the Amazon forest, the Dominican Republic, Punta Cana, I came back to Cuba, US Roadtrip, France and Spain Roadtrip, Madagascar, some Africa, Andorra, Caribbean, Panama, Bali

7. I have the cleverest cat I could, and it's so sweet, it talks to me. 

9. Yana, maybe

10. I played a concert for 20K

11. I did many collaborations with inspiring musicians

12. I live on passive income

13. I don't have to do a 9-5 job to live very well

14. I am so loved, and it works both ways. I make someone as happy as they make me happy, in balance 

15. I play with or meet MK.GEE, I think it would be fun haha, as he is so down to earth 

16. I do creative things that I like doing, and "he" also likes it

17. I feel free

18. I am so fit

19. I did my aligners and eye operation

20. I am so flexible and free of back pain 

21. My life is filled with music, love, and joy 

22. I wrote a kids' book, got published

23. I have a low-maintenance, large-income business.

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Life is moving on, and I am excited for what's to come

I wanna go on another solo holiday

It was so much fun in Cuba

I would love to go somewhere else