I m so sorry

This might be misspelled.

But that’s my english level.

I have achieved many things last 5 years.

But it has own price.

I can’t say i waste my time.

But i also do not feel that everything i have done went perfectly.

But in what I totally failed (failed - nicely saying...)..

Is being myself.

Being social.

topic "people" totally  failed.

I feel sorry for me that i have lost so many contacts with good people.

And so many contacts with people what I just met at the moment and I didn’t keep in touch.

Now I just started read my old msg-es on facebook.

And it looks so poorly.

Me- who always talked with people.

I, really, used to enjoy it, then I was just barely replying to messages

So self f... concentrated, focused just on myself

That one I regretting so deep

I was always surrounded by people

Enjoying discussions

But here is so hard to find time

and power

being always at work

not having time even for you

you just have to sacrifice something

but it was always time for people

and here I am

 standing alone

so aware of it

without possibility to improve

not yet

as always

NOT ...f.... YET