do I wanna know

 this kind a comes in the waves
few things went good
5 others bad

but kinda have to put it in order in my head again 
do I actually care what people say
do I actually consider their opinion important
who are they
why should it meter
if its about me - it doesn't really
who metters 
who doesn't 
what metters 
what doesn't 
what I care about 
and what I don't 
what's that I truly want
what's I don't care at all
am I honest with myself 
am I lying to myself
am I brave 
or am I hiding 
am I facing things
or am I avoiding it? 

do I live today, or I try to live in the future or past? 
what are the things that acctualy depends on me
what are the things I can't influence or change
if I choose to worry about those 
do I choose to be happy or sad
do I choose to live or just pass days by