oh boy!

I’m not sure how I let you get under my skin

I’ve been so careful watching every step, so precisely

Sometimes, overwriting feels like the only way to erase

If I overwrite, and then I need to overwrite the overwritten when does it ever stop?

how to overwrite in a way that nothing come to the surface anymore 

oh,

fairly clever, fairly witty, fairly happy, fairly carlees, fairly homely, fairly nothing-that-I-want-to-struggle-with or fairly something-I-not-should-be-doing but at the same time fairly satisfying, fairly unattainable what triggers fairly  desirable

have you ever been there? if yes, we would get along as its  seems to be my favourite place to be. place when you want something because you can't get it so you want probably mostly because of that fact. not a fun place to be, seems like never ending chase you volunteered to take part in and you can't even remember why but you keep running 

Is my life like trial? Am I constantly being checked how much can I take? is it like like obstacle race wanting me so badly to fail,  checking how long until I give up?

When all is said and done

Could you really love anybody else?

Do you think about me when you're by yourself?

If this was really what you want

Why you're sitting staring at the floor?

Won't you break the silence now, what you're waiting for?

If you don't know by now

How much you love me

As deep as the ocean or as shallow as the tide

If you don't know by now

How much you want me

As constant as the heavens or as fleeting as the night

If you don't hear a sound when my heart's crying out

If you don't know by now I guess you'll never know

How long have I denied

Calling every worry about to fly

Maybe it was easier to close my eyes

Or maybe I'm a fool

For putting all my faith in you

'Cause somewhere in the darkest night there's a hidden truth