I did it, and I feel emptier then ever before

 

100 conversations were the goal

nothing else

just proper trail

fair, so I had to actually respond

as expected out of 100

with 4, It actually was worth  talking

but at the same time, it left me so F drained 

like I don't want to talk to anyone in 100 years after all

but done - forgotten

I learnt too that doesn't matter how hard I try - I'm never gonna be a different person 

I always try too fucking hard 

and I always have to invest too much either time or energy 

and I want the feeling that I am important 

but once I get it, I feel like it's too much, so I would rather walk away

so fucking pathetic.

like i actually asking myself: girl what do you want 

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also so many random outputs of events

I genuinely dn why my life it's being so chaotic

no plan, just following the wave 

to people who add to my peace, thank you for your tiny bits, as I feel like I lost control of what I am doing 

and maybe a sense of who I am 

And thanks for that late-night, six-hour-long LOL religion discussion, G!

I didn't think I needed it at all, but then I realised it was exactly what I needed

so unexpected 

it was so refreshing to see a completely different POV

and actually talk to someone whose nature is spiritual, just because

seems like we are friends now?

Thank you, A, for the sense of humour; it's so uplifting. I just needed it now 

And thanks, C, for the inspiration.. In the end, music is everything — isn’t it?

I am at the dead end in a few aspects of life rn, and I have no clue how it will go, but I trust that I'm always lucky, so I just life to work out its ways

and you, little human, never imagined that you could be that I.C.

feels almost like Winterfell, after the winter came

what does it suppose to teach me

wines with O always go so quickly

and to Sasha - you are such a highlight to that boring world, just with those always positive stories I can see on Instagram, I always think "maybe I actually could do something too"