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 poprostu po ludzku przykro mi

nie umiem sobie tego ulozyc w gowie dzisiaj

My footsteps on the ground

But I'm in the trees, I'm in the breeze

My footsteps on the ground

You'll see my face in every place

lots

This year lots have happened 

its wasn't easy journey 

now I feel like I finally see some lights through that darkness 

tiny blinking light at the end of narrow dark street but is there all the time 

sometimes is harder to see it but it's constantly there and helps to walk

My life always was full of bumps on my roads

I think finally I'm starting to take responsibility for them

I always believed is a bad luck or its a destiny or however you wanna call it

Now I know that you create what comes in majority and its your responsibility how you take it and what you do with it

Some of those lessons was painful but I hope I've learnt once for all

Please all of you and universe keep fingers crossed for me because I need a little bit of luck this time

I did all I possibly could to make things better I cannot think of one thing more I could do

So all its gonna be good but to be extraordinarily I need this few precent of luck 

so I'm  asking for it 

I'm all ready to receive it

I wanna come back to that massage soon and just add thanks 

I feel like I could be happy

Nadal bardzo Cie kocham

to ma sens

czy to widzisz?

Autumn 🍂

Where am I?

Where are you?

What's going on in my life is beyond I ever imagined I could ever process.

I'm still alive and here, stronger then ever.

Did it all have to happened to I start to believe that sometimes even you have nothing to say in you story (at least it looks like at moments) you still can choose to be happy?

Happiness is a choice, what you think is a choice and how you react is your choice.

Hope you never going to forget it Martyna

Even if you are crumbling on the floor and crying your eyes out its your choice. You chose to do it, someone else in your situation could be just having a walk and drinking a coffee - but you chosen to react in that ways so you suffer. 

So pick up yourself as soon as you can and decide to be happy, as circumstances no meter, you decide how you feel by simply allowing the thoughts to flood you

Don't do it, that's not worth it

Let's finish with victimising yourself in your mind.

Start simply tell yourself different stories as the old once do not benefit you in any way

🎊🥳

 HBTM

I guess

Just please be better then the last one!

Pixies Wheeeeeeeeeeere is my miiiiiiiiiiiind

 

this month was quite big one

no one would even understand if I would try to explain all why's

most people won't approve but it feels

like I can make decisions for myself by myself

and then live with the consequences

sometimes there is no steps back

and sometimes that's allright

at the same time I couldn't care less (not about you)

I didn't know that I could not care

but apparently that's possible

(that's a bit scary)

I thought it would matter more

but it didn't

It feels like nothing to me

like just never ending nothing 

and it surprised me 

I though I would feel something, but I don't

at all

It very new to me

the experiment (life is it) continues

only think can make me feel something deeper is music rn

and the thing what makes me feel good 

is VERY surprisingly listening laud to Slash

I became do much stronger recently that I surprise even myself

Life likes to challenge me

co czujesz

Help, I lost myself agian but you remember me

 

Help! I lost myself again

 but you remember me

the hardest period of my life so far
I've never fallen  from so high

I've never fallen so low
I'm not sure anymore I can get up

Seems impossible

I'm the one who always tries the hardest

I was always so strong

 

I don't even know how this all has happened

My all energy goes into trying to feel better but seems working so slow

There is no way to take this pain away and separate from it

How do I reverse it 

I need to be the most strong when I'm the most weak

.

it's my life

is it now or never?

is it yes or no?

The summer smell its adding to my deeps, its hugging me an lifting me up.

I'm confident  all goes in a good direction

Such a thunderstorm in my life

dive

deep dive down.

how to lift up.

breathing, i try to keep breathing

a big day

Small people think they gonna rise by belittling others.
Strong people or true leaders know that you rise by lifting others up.
To all of the who likes bitching about
You're still there while I'm here ;)

running circles

FINNEAS - Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa

  Jasmine Jethwa - Running Circles

I feel really alone. 

Like there is no one to talk. 
Again. It makes me sad.

I guess it will pass

overwhelming feeling of love

artificial

but with real feeling attached to it

such an interesting thing 

like your mind will open, or leveled up.

like everyone and everything  would be connected by love

before you couldn't see it clearly, but now you can

like the world gave you a big hug and you wanna give it back

like all the bad thoughts and ideas in your head wouldn't matter anymore

like you will not see need to worry about little important things anymore

:D